Lost, and confused then found (?)

She is lost. And she is still searching for herself.

How can she do so ? When all she knows is that time passes too fast. She knows nothing, she feels so intimidated by the figures around her who have very high intellectual thinking capacities ; their hearts hold a garden of knowledge, their minds are greater than a programmed computer! Indeed, they portray the beautiful ayah, they live the words of God. They believe and work to prove that they are among the people whom Allah declares as Ahsanu Taqweem.
Ahsanu Taqweem. The best creation of all. Tuba lakum, tuba ! Blessed they are she can clearly see. All her dear friends who are never insight, but always close to the heart kept tight. They inspire her, to always work on for the better. And for that she will never stop her steps from leaving the place where she is lost, and confused to a place she will start anew. For her love isnt solely for a language she adores, but her love purely is for the mankind. She dreams of living and constantly giving. She hopes to see a world of blessings. She has high expectations on herself. But some of her ambitions and aspirations have faded and scuttled in the sea of Ghafla. A sea of ignorance. No, it's not the place where she is to be put into responsibility, indeed it is her who is guilty of letting herself sink into a pointless life. A life where time will cut you down if you, in the first place dont try to beat it up.

But how can she do so ? When all she knows is that books have beautiful cover pages. And all that she could stand was just reading the first few pages then dozing of to a goalless dreamland ? She has come upon a few remarkable people, she could simply conclude that they all spend time and invest on reading. She knows and is completely aware about it, but it will never seem as she has learnt something, not until she puts reading into action. How can she contribute to the society properly when she has no clue of what to do? When the brain is all zero, shall his armies fight and strive? Obvious answer, no strategy, no use. All the outstanding people, they have goals and visions. They read to gain something. They read to level up their selves ; nearer to their goals. But her, she just started to crave the path of her ideas. Yes it is never too late; better late than never. But sometimes its always better to never even be late.

But how can she do so ? When all that her heart resonates are the frequencies of Dunya ? From what she listens to what she sees, so little are the things that are related to Deen. She has fallen into a Well of Deceive, where she is still down there in the darkness looking for some way out. But the heart has been partially enslaved to hedonism where at times it resists to climb its way out of the Well. She has seen very great people greatly well-mannered. And she has not find anything except the fact that they have a very strong relationship with God. Truly, when we entrust our affairs to Allah for the sake of finding an easier path to be closer to Him, He will never let us down. Allah has ALWAYS been near. It is us who moved far away from Him

She understands, what she actually needs is to focus and gain more knowledge to be closer to God, eternity. She must not waste time, for time is very limited, and the end of the world is very near.

She will come back, stronger than ever.